Out of these Ashes, Beauty will RISE

This morning I sit here in a silent house with a heavy heart thinking and praying for family that lost a sweet precious baby girl. My heart aches for I know the pain and joy that this mother faced as she welcomed her new little daughter into this cold and dark world last night. Life is a precious gift from God and I am reminded of this daily. I can remember finding out our Raegan at 19 weeks had Trisomy 18 and would most likely not live long after her birth. God clearly laid out his plan for her and us. Those next 14 weeks were some of the hardest yet comforting weeks of our lives. We knew what was likely to happen but we never thought she would change our lives like she did.

My little Raegan's life left us questing our life's purpose and in the most broken and beautiful way God chose to use her to heal our brokenness. Christopher would have never gone into ministry. my passion to minister to other mothers in their time of what seems like despair would have never happened, and my mother in law would not have had the desire for a closer walk with Jesus. It's easy 8 years later to say all of this but that pain and heartache is still there but I know one day we will all be together again. 

I love the song by written by Steven Curtis Chapman Beauty Will Rise.  What beautiful words to comfort broken hearts. Out of these Ashes WE DID RISE! Thank you Jesus for our precious gift!! 

It was the day the world went wrong
I screamed till my voice was gone
And watched through the tears
As everything came crashing down

Slowly panic turns to pain
As we awake to what remains
And sift through the ashes 
That are left behind

But buried deep beneath all our broken dreams
We have this hope 

Out of the ashes
Beauty will rise
And we will dance among the ruins
We will see it with our own eyes
Out of these ashes
Beauty will rise
For we know joy is coming
In the morning

In the morning
Beauty will rise

So take another breath for now
And let the tears come washing down
And if you can't believe 
I will believe for you

'Cause I have seen the signs of spring
Just watch and see

Out of these ashes,
Beauty will rise
And we will dance among the ruins
We will see it with our own eyes

Out of this darkness
New life will shine
And we'll know joy is coming in the morning

In the morning, 
I can hear it in the distance
And it's not too far away
It's the music
And the laughter of a wedding and a feast

I can almost feel the hand of God
Reaching for my face to wipe the tears away
You say "It's time to make everything new
Making it all new"

This is our hope
This is a promise
This is our hope
This is a promise

It will take our breath away
To see the beauty that's been made
Out of the ashes
Out of the ashes

It will take our breath
To see the beauty that He's made out of the ashes
Out of the ashes
Out of the ashes